His description was near to perfection,
He was any girl’s sweetest dream
But just like how he could make any girl squeal in delight..
He caused damaged to the first girl of his dreams.
Will a guy like him with a voice of an angel be forgiven?
A/N: You’ll appreciate this story more if you listen to these songs while reading..
>Today I broke up – Younha
>White Lies – DBSK: composed by Xiah
>Romantic – SHINee
>In my Room –SHINee
>Don’t say goodbye – DBSK
>Forgive me – sang by Kyuhyun ;D
*Another thing, I know you can’t speak Korean therefore find some subtitles Haha.. Enjoy~
Well it’s just a suggestion if you don’t want to, it’s okay :D Haha.
There are a series of flashbacks here so please don’t be confused. Also the Italic sentences are lyrics to the song ‘White Lies’. It’s a really beautiful song, composed by my Xiah Junsu~
It was raining that day, raindrops trickled upon the rooftop of his room, and His beautiful neckline was exposed as he leaned upon the moistened window that changed due to the moody temperature. He looked out the window, then he sees her face, he looked again then he sighs.
How could he have been so foolish?
Wasn’t letting go of her the right choice?
It must have been, right? He was an idol and all, He knew he wouldn’t be able to be there for her whenever she needed to. No matter how much he wanted to call, he couldn’t and he wouldn’t even dare to. He would be useless to her, right?
If so, why is he feeling so much pain and burden upon his chest?
He opened a can of soda with the fizz reaching his ears. He took a sip after that he contemplated once again in what he just did.
“Kyuhyun-ah~” A familiar voice called out to him. He took a glance behind and there he found Sungmin sitting just right behind him all the time.
Sungmin gave him a bright smile, the usual smile he always had even during casual days, he then spoke, “Kyuhyun-sshi, listen to Xiah-hyung’s song ‘White Lies’, I’m sure it’ll help you.”
Just how did Sungmin know what Kyuhyun needed? A smile slowly crept back to the bewildered Kyuhyun’s face, He then answered, “Thanks hyung, anyway why are you still awake?”
“Nothing, it’s just that it’s raining and the noise has been bothering me quite a bit, and it also doesn’t help that I see our dongsaeng sighing on a window…” He chuckled, “You know if you were waiting for the window to answer you then you should have told me.”
Kyuhyun stifled a laugh but he immediately returned to his sober mood, “I’ll try listening to the song you suggested hyung.”
With that, he left his hyung and lied down the soft bed but as simple as it seems, lying down seemed like the first step to cruelty. Even in the ceilings, he could see her image, her pearly white smile, her shiny wavy black hair, even the way she moves and talk. Everything was like a repeating movie to him, it was suffocating and he got irritated each moment he thought about it.
Kyuhyun picked up his music player, he started searching for the song. To his surprise, he actually had the song White Lies. His fragile fingers fumbled through the keys for the play button, Not long after the song came playing in his ears. It slowly penetrated his mind.
A flashback dawned upon his mind as the lyrics flowed on its natural course.
How much time passed, Since our happy memories. I can’t even try, leaving the tender you.
Flashback*
“Kyuhyun-sshi, do you know why the stars are far away?” The girl with the sweetest smile asked.
Kyuhyun shook his head sideways, “No, why?”
She gave him an unfathomable smirk, “Stars, contain many gases and just like how a star lives.. It also dies and when it dies, it explodes. If it was near the earth, it could’ve have affected so many people.”
“Are they like humans?” He questioned, his eyes innocent and pure, she couldn’t help but stroke his pale face.
In the verge of tears she responded, “Yes, in a way they are.”
*End of Flashback
I have to laugh in front of you. I have to have a bright smile but when I think of you I cry. I have to forget you now. I have to erase you from my memories, I leave you now.
Kyuhyun squeezed his shirt, another memory revived within him.
Flashback*
“Kyuhyun-ah~ when will we go out again?” A girl pouted as she remarked, her small and delicate hands reached out to his hands. They were cold but his hands were warm so in a way, they were complimenting each other.
He pinched the girl’s cheek, “You know I’m busy right? I’m really sorry I can’t go.”
“Aigoo, aren’t there any other opportunities?” She tilted her head sideways in attempt to look cute.
He lets out a heart felt laugh, “I’ll treat you ice cream.”
“Cho Kyuhyun do you take me as a kid?”
“Well you do act like one.”
“Yah!” Her footsteps paced forward as she attempted to strangle Kyuhyun.
End of Flashback*
Unconsciously, a lone tear descended upon his cheek. He quickly removes it, the song was reminding too much to him. The song, however, was unwilling to let him go.
If I can meet you just one more time, If you can see me, I will show you my everything, all my hidden love.
Even if I’m not in the world anymore, I will only wish your happiness. Don’t cry, Please don’t cry, I can’t even wipe them away for you.
Kyuhyun muttered, “That day when I left you on the streets, alone. I knew you were about to cry, and even if I’m not with you I know you would still cry… Please don’t. I couldn’t even let you borrow my shoulder.”
I’m afraid that I might see you because my heart might be sad. I’m going to have to leave you now.
His hands were quivering, “I’m such a babo, I am the one who left you and yet I’m the one who is saddened by it.”
Even the common words of “I love you”. Until now I couldn’t even say, “I love you..”
“I love you.. but I never told you that.”
I’ll go to a place where you don’t exist. Like this I’ll erase you from me.
“I’ve been immature. I’ve been foolish in my decisions but the moment I saw him with you, smiling, I knew that I had to forget you.” Her picture was in his hands, they seem reluctant to toss the picture aside but, he gathered his strength to do it anyway.
As time passes by if I can see you, If I can just touch you for one more time, I won’t ever leave.
And it was true, if ever he could, he would.
Lightning flashed along the pouring heavy rain, it seemingly wanted attention from him and when he glimpsed at it, He felt like something was calling him-
Or rather someone.
His hands carefully removed the earphones from his ears and then he ran towards the door. The strength he was collecting within was burning his desire to do something he never did.
Sungmin was about to follow him but Kyuhyun’s movements were too quick and with that he waltzed out the door. Like the wind, he disappeared.
The rain outside was pouring but Kyuhyun never minded it. He knew he was finally ready to do this..
He’s ready to sing the song he never managed to sing to her personally in the end. At least with the strong current of the wind together with the rain the song might probably reach her ears.
Kyuhyun stood against the downpour and with his heart he sings,
“Please don’t after separation still remember the promise after the kiss.
Your forever, no longer belongs to me.
Silently facing dawn, I had a lot of words choked in my throat at that point of time.
Your smile, your happiness not because I, love too much, think too much.
I can feel he’s more suitable than me. Love have to let go, I camouflaged to be cold.
Forced you to break up first…”
He kneeled down and although he seemed crazy to do that, at that time and moment all he knew was that he wanted to sing that. His voice was like an angel, melodious, calming and unforgiving as it strikes the heart. No one’s perfect but his voice was one of the greatest gifts he had.
He continued, “Please forgive me, forgive me for being immature.
Not loving you is an excuse so that you can leave me.
Please forgive the me who wants to possess you selfishly.
Your loneliness just let me bear, change to you, to lead a better place..
Actually I’m more coward than anyone.
Forgive me, I have to pretend to have loved wrongly. Don’t let time rewind, I’m afraid I can’t say it out..”
His last words to his song were, “Forget me totally, love should be willing to let go.”
The tears streamed along with the raindrops as he smiled as a sign of relief.
A girl was crying relentlessly behind a tall tree, she slumped down as she held her knees close to her body like a lost child. She remarked, “That.. was all I wanted to hear from you.. The voice from a remarkable angel..”
Kyuhyun’s face glimmered because of the wet appearance he held, she held her breath as she gazed at the beautiful guy in front of her. He was simply appalling in any way. Her heart was longing to hug him, to comfort him and to stroke the face that always had her smiling, she didn’t care if he was an idol.
By the expression of his face however, she knew he wanted to set free his memories of his love…
For the unnamed girl..
Who never told him her name.
END
A/N: LOL what a dramatic ending hahaha. Sorry I just felt like making one, Kyuhyun makes me feel emotional xD. I love the guy! Kyuhyun-oppa kyaa~!
By the way, sorry for the korny and cheesy story. Actually, I’m not used to it and yeah, it’s not raining when I was writing this. Oh well.. Done and done!!
